How I would love to always be the best mom I can think to be. To always choose the best foods, plan the best activities, have the best discipline, make all the best choices for these amazing little people I love to the moon and back.
But, I have to be the first to admit that we buy drive through and convenience foods more than I would prefer. And sometimes I just tell them to go play so that I can get done the things that feel like they have to be done now (like weeding the flower beds, or making supper, or cleaning up the mess left over from supper...)
And sometimes I have a grown up tantrum over something I know, as an adult, isn't really worth the effort of the tantrum. Something that is really only worth a gentle correction, a reminder that walking in the house results in fewer bumps and bruises, and not winding the dog up keeps him from making a mess that they need to learn to clean up.
Here's the great thing though. They love me anyway. They think they are getting the best of it all anyway. Well, maybe not dealing with a mom-tantrum. But they are such great teachers for grace and forgiveness.
It is amazing how they can see the time that I want to get things done as time to run, bike, jump, make up games, and create gorgeous art with their chalk on the driveway. Time to be outside and explore the wonders of nature like plants, insects, and bubbles.
They see the not-so-great food choices as a treat; I've had all three turn down an offer of something sweet for fruit. They will almost always ask for a visit to the produce section of the store (if it has one) to pick out some fruit or veggies or yogurt to snack on, and almost never ask for candy. And, really, those drive through meals are outnumbered by the foods we make at home by an overwhelming majority.
Here's the thing I think I have down pat about being a mom.. I love them right back. I want the best things for them, and I work really hard to get them those things. I love spending time with them, and seeing their interest and wonder at the baby plants and the insects that they check out. I love seeing them learn about fueling their bodies with the things that they need, and just BEING with them.
They are my favorite teachers. I enjoy listening to them imagine and play, to seeing the art and Lego buildings they create, to watch them learn to ride their bike farther and faster, and to climb the tree just a little higher. They love giving to others, and it is beautiful to see.
There are so many things I would love to do; being a mom to these kiddos is something I wouldn't trade for the world. I guess I'm doing better than I thought.....
